Last day in Ipoh

Everyone has to sacrifice something to grow up...I feel so bad to leave my family here...2 and a half month, i have been resting at home and spent so much time with my family members...I know that i am going to miss them like crazy this round...Without my family's support and love, i know that i wouldn't be survive today...All i have toay is all because of them...

Heading to an unknown future, don't know what job that i am going to pick up, don't know where I am going to stay, i should have planned all these, but well...I have Jesus with me...God, pls guide my ways, direct my path as i pray...I love you Jesus and i surrender everything into ur hands...Jesus, thank you for everything and I love you...Amen!!

My sincere prayer to u, Jesus...

My dear Jesus,
I just feel so miserable tonight...When Ah jie mentioned about Sarah...Sarah still asking about koko in Singapore, it did remind me about Guan Keat...I should have hate him a lot, but i just miss him sometimes, ppl might look at me as a strong gal, but i m jut nothing at all...What i have today it's all because of ur love n mercy...For what had happened in the past, it was hurtful to me...But God, i know u care, i know that u r concern...I leave everything into ur hands...Thank you for being here with me...I truely appreciate and i know that i know u'll understand...maybe I just need sometime to let go of everything...I just pray that let your will be done...i choose to obey and i want to follow your will...Because I love you...

Daddy God, my SIA interview is coming soon...in 6 more days, i'll be going out to fight the battle...I am going out to pursue my dream le...I have been dreaming for so long, ad now is the time for me to shine le...I just want to tell u that, God, i am really serious about this job, and this is my desire to be a cabin crew, and i long to be a stewardess...I want to do something that'll make u proud...Jesus, would u pls grant me with ur favor, ur wisdom, ur confidence...i put all my hope in you alone...I know that everything is n your hands right nw, God, i give u my all...I love you...

What is dream??

Everyone has a dream to be pursued...But sometimes when u put the highest expectation in ur dream, if u fail, it'll be definitely hurted...The dreams that u have will always make u face difficulties and it's going to cost u a lot...maybe the dream is easy for u to achieve, but because of so afraid of failing, we tend to lose strength and confidence in pursueing...It's going to be very hard this round, should i go and just give up?? I am so stress now...everyone has different things in life to think about, but what i am thinking now is just all about that interview...i got to learn how to let go right now...i can't hold on too tight....GOd...help me....Help me to learn how to breathe within such circumstances...

I am just thinking...

I am just wondering, i have putting all my hopes and dreaming about the dream that i have had since i was young...what is the things that will happen if i fail the coming interview at 19th of June...I put all my effort and really wish that i could get in...I have given the highest expectation, just to become a SIA cabin crew...hoping and wishing that i could be the one...I am leaving all my troubles behind and run toward the goal...God, i pray and i pray, that u'll guide me and lead me this time, deep down my heart i really cry out for a door to be opened, i want to run the race for u Jesus...I am different from others, i always want to be a better person, i want to achieve something in life, at least for my family, for my love ones...I want my Jesus to be glorified and proud of me...Daddy God, 11 days to go...these 11 days, i am trying my very best to fill myself with knowledge and train myself up to be a confident person...I'll try my best n let u do the rest...Jesus, today i write down all my feelings...and i pray that u'll bring me to the destination...In Jesus' name i pray, I love you Jesus, Amen...!!